I was disappointed in anthony, why would someone reject another? i see no point in being friends, is there no more to gain, are you bitter, is this a sort of revenge?
disappointed in how predictable this turned out to be, but i guess ill decide how to react on this situation in a good while.

meanwhile i found out i got into my last waitlisted class HALLELUJAH! I am now officially registered for 4 classes, that i cannot drop because they are all year long sequences minus tdac which was just incredibly difficult to get into. so that's great i need to do 20 pages of spanish in hmm i was going to say 2 hours, but let's say hour and half at most. then i need to sleep a few hours, get up and run and shit because
ii found out rush is today, not next week.

the ro chi or w.e who was advising me had her schedule mixed up and told me it was next week, but it's not WTF.
FB told me it starts today, thank god i went home and brought the rest of my clothes, but oh shit i really need to do laundry. and do my nails. I need to look good, better than usual, and step it up to see where i land in this greek hierarchy.

i was going to social dance tonight, as a last night recruiting thing, but instead i guess im going to rush and then go straight to NAK's huge party tonight, omfg i don't know if i can do that all. I need to figure things out
go to work early...ahhh im a little flustered having to adjust to this new impediment. Not many things to reschedule but UFF!
I better organize my schedule like great this weekend because i wont havemuch time! just rush and party. good heavens.

so much for the beach date
awwwwellll

@.@
need to get my head on straight.
things are great though
couldnt be better now that i think of it..
<3

today was unexpectedly my first day of MGC Rush
my apt mate said she was rushing in the morning and i decided to join her, and i went to the Rho's first Rush event. I had a lot of fun, did great on publicity on recruiting, i felt i left a favorable impression, and yeah i wanted to go back. I felt so bad, i didnt want to take their food, or the prize i lead my team to win, but it was only $4, like cheap. Theyre having some great club event next week i wish i could go to! but i have my first dancesport meeting that is going to be a lot.

so yeah i had a great time, and im kind of hooked, i wanted to meet more people, i want to rush more. I want to meet the lambdas, im so greatful and happy that luis didnt come up when i was meeting these girls, hopefully they just met me for me. i made them laugh a lot and yeah, we won our school scavenger hunt, and my group of girls won a prize. I met cute enthusiastic freshmen and transfers, i want to help them adapt too.

idk if i have time for this though, what with flyering, class, and working. im so incredibly dead.
i suffered in my econometrics class because of overloading myself
i dont schedule time in my schedule to eat
it is horrible.

i can't believe it hasn't been even a month since luis came back, it's been only 2 weeks, but it has felt like forever!
i like him a lot, he likes me a lot. I'm learning a lot from him, he's learning from me, though i'm thinking not as much. I think at this rate it's going to end soon because it's too good to last long, and he's not a relationship type of guy. people would ask him if he still has a gf. i like him a lot, i don't want to lose him. i don't. i don't know what will happen when it does happen
i'll lose the whole fraternity sorority lifestyle? partying with the MGCs won't be as frequent, ill have to deal with avoiding him, avoiding seeing him with other girls, i guess i shouldnt bother to think about this. i love this life though
it's so fun and what college is all about right?

my boyfriend...
we haven't even technicallly been together for 2 months! but we'll just say it has been 2 months

he sucks at dating though
this boyy

today i will die
yesterday i died
so long dayssss @.@
idk whether to dance or study its my last dance class
i should really study...
RAWR

life is so jam packed and busy
i never have any down time though
there's nak stuff in my apt...

i need to start carrying a camera around with me
and use it
it's a shame all my memories will go by and i won't have some digital way of remembering it other than social networks
my room is all clean! for the most part
dyed my hair last night, it's really red now, though im sad because it's a little patchy but you won't notice much unless in detail
i want my family to come down and visit mee!

i didn't win limbo :[

kk need to start studying
g

Life is good.

I would've never saw myself where I am today a year ago or at any other age. I'm young, I'm loving life, these are my college years, and people won't believe everything I've done and had been. I'm meeting so many people with my jobs and lifestyle, the Muir people with my Student Affairs job, the general freshman class with my Recruiting job, the party people I guess that's like the freshmen interests. I'm the President's girl, I know most of the NAK's by now, I won this cheering rock, paper, scissors game which was freaking epic since everyone was cheering my name, so now most 2nd yrs in Tamarack know me. I have red, turning orange hair so you can recognize me.
But of course there are expectations...
I am a public figure, yet I have a boyfriend, the question of PDA, the acceptance of sex, everyone's names, my publicized mood, my organization skills. mm

There's a lot I have to deal with being Luis's aka the President's girl. I can't talk to boys for long, I have to be careful what I say, need to watch my manners, I'm expected to choose my boyfriend over my friends, expected to be at a lot of NAK events/parties etc.

Nonetheless, life is good.
I couldn't have asked for a better way to start school.

first day of classes
first day of classes
first day of classes!
yayyayyay

waitlisted for 2 uff
hopefully i get in!

hi there!
ive been so fucking extremely busy xanga
ive slept in my bed 4/5 days
party sun mon going on tue prob wed thurs def fri but i want to go social dancing, it's so hard to party hop!
ive been so busy goodlord
its fun and im meeting a shit ton of people
this is being social
recruiting makes me analyze my social skills and mejorarlos
i need to do my nails
i havent had any time to get any of the free stuff :_( im sad! i wish it werent that way
looks like im taking 4 classes this quarter fuckmylife right
i hate parking the van
i thank the lord i have the van for all my recruiting materials
i like my boyfriend very much
hes very busy like me but i see him everynight

i hate being so busy i can even clean up my room though :_(
its so unsanitary
washed my sheets feel better
met my mentee
no work tomorrow
failed driving some ancient golf cart today
i cant believe how g some indians are
g house people are farking rad before now when
i dont know how to meet ppl
im lacking so much sleep
were going at it riiight?

i meeting such great people
i wouldnt have met them if i hadnt put myself out like this
i can do this prty thing though
nopenopeno
im getting to be a better conversationalist thoughhh

its u and me and were running this town yo

good dear lord
i was told i wouldnt be getting a lot of sleep
but they were serious
im like a living zombie
working by day party by night

tonight will be interesting im trying

im moving out in a few hours
still havent really gotten about to packing
i really need to exercise
good lord i do
i went to phil's for the first time and had a great time waiting in line with my two roommates whom im leaving today
i even talked to luis who's stupid idea for a date is going to some alumni picnic for his frat and then going off
i dont know if he think's that it's socializing or if he thinks thats just a way to get free food, or
if he's just doing business because he needs to rep his frat because he's president
ill go because i think it's interesting and he did mention it although he did feel doubt about my going in that atmosphere
then we will continue but i'll think of something more date appropriate
he doesn't have experience being in a relationship
he's not romantic
he apparently can be if he wants to
we'll go on a real date on friday
as for now, this is only a half date i guess i'd hardly count it
ii sacrificed so much to spend this afternoon with him
choreographing a dance
spendingtime with apartment mates
i feel like im sacrificing so much
i had a greatgreat chat with emily about my sex issues
i love talking to my girlfriends from back home about sex because their problems are like my problems
and they've dealt or are in those situations themselves
i love talking to emily about my relationship
because she sees many things i dont see
i believe theyre right theyre correct
i mean i believe whatever other people believe
but i have more confidence in emily's rationalizations because she has a similar background as me being a multiracial girl from an upper middle class town
im sad im leaving her, but ill definitely be dropping by to chill with her when i need to get off campus and such
this was my home too

so yes i got along with my two new roommates theyre so friendly and realistic and so interesting
hopefully i will visit them when i have the time
ive only been with them two or three days

but they were so kind to help me basically cooking me a simple fried rice dish for me to bring to the alumni picnic tomorrow, im so incredibly blessed to have had their help in this hard time of mine
i didnt even go social dancing tonight, but luckily i realized i could call a friend i just met there daniel to pick the flyers up for me
i feel so lucky
today was a magical day
the weather was incredibly horrible
but i feel so lucky for everything that happened to me
i made such a great impression on welcome week committee, i loved my outfit
i drove a golfcart around ucsd
i came back and did 4 loads of laundry
ate amazing food
talked so incredibly much
it was great!
i thank the lord for this great day and night he gave me
all the help i received
im too ambitious
i appreciate it so much
so thankful.

my hair is red
its darker on bottom
its dark red
not a happy friendly red
hopefully itll wash out soon

today is going to be so intense
i have a feeling i might not go dancing tonight
too many things to do x.x goooood grief
work is a nice atmosphere though