Tell me a little about yourself.
Well, i am 1st generation, and multicultural woman that has a passion for culture and the arts
i plan to go into publicity, pr, advertising work because the way I view things, if it shines, if its a product, organization, person who is exceptional and remarkable other people show about this. I want to help people. I feel that with this job I could help a lot of people because of everything UCSD has to offer. The resources, the organizations, the faculty, I feel so lucky to be a student here.

so ive been put in interesting demoralizing situations lately that im definitely making the best of but i do not know what is the right thing to do
or course that is subjective but
one that is not important to me atm is how im in a organization with low morale and motivation to go to meeting
my current problem is im in a group a girls who will let me do all the work when it is a group effort
i will not let the team fail
that is my horrible weakness
but thats correct and it makes me sad that im in such a group who will not even step up speak up or say something
about what im doing about what theyre not doing
we have a big group and we dont take advantage of it i might as well be in a small group at least i would justified to say i did a lot of the work but this is unacceptable and saddening.
this is definitely preoccupying me because i want to do this org i want to but these are not the girls i expected to meet and encounter and it makes me sad because thats not why i joined this. i dont want to leave but it's not fair to me and maybe that's what's best for me. i feel it is going too far to say that i might leave considering how much i put into it so far but imagine if you were in my position what would you do? what would you do.
i want to write a speech
maybe i can just read this probably not

I'm doing a lot of the things
I don't feel like i'm getting support
I really want to do this
I really want to do this quickly
But I am wrong because it is not I
it should be we
and we are not acting that way
and I am wrong to be pulling things along
if everyone is not ready to move forward
it makes me sad that i'll be calling everyone my p if
theyre not going to treat me like one or let me do this to myself
but mostly i have to apologize for doing so much
that is my fault

a woman without love withers like a flower with no sun

dear xanga
it seems i have abandoned you
no i don't know
im starting a new chapter in my life
im now involved but busy busy

im pledging right now
and thank god im in good favor..