I THOUGHT YOU DON'T NEED MY HELP ANY MORE....CAUSE I TOOK ADVANTAGE ON YOU! ; BE REAL.

but this extra bit is killer.
i was expecting it
but it still makes me sad
what do i do...

good day
long day
ive been up since 8am it's 12am...15 hours
not bad
but the thing is ive been busy the whole time
no fucking slacking
im involved
maybe too involved
im busy
maybe too busy
i have a lot going for me
im living a life
the life

i like life now
i love thursdays
they feel like fridays
tomorrow im filming ALL DAY
and maybe have a nice night
but i dont plan on much
cause the next day im going ice skating
my days are so effing jam packed

my sister got into UCSD
hopefully shell get into ucla so i can use her housing hahaha that horrible
let her decide for herself
im calling people next week to tell them theyre admitted
im excited to be doing that
and applying for my internship and transfer ol over the weekend as well.

ill be working with luis haha, tooo bad we wont be calling new admittees together next week im just not free on some days.
and well be working transfer ol also so im excited for that
i wonder if he'll intimidate me i have a feeling he will
but ill just have to get over it
im qualified.

ok tired and i still have to write a critique and update my resume x.x
lordy.

AHH I WROTE AN ESSAY SINGLE SPACED SO I WOULDN'T FEEL BAD ABOUT WRITING A PAPER THAT WAS 4 PAGES BUT TURNS OUT 2 PAGES SINGLE SPACED MADE ALMOST 5 PAGES WTFFFFFFFFFF

what a waste of my morning
i hate being an overachiever
not on purpose
RAWRRRRRKADFGNWOGJWPIOGMWPGM

ok this quarter..i was going to say semester larlarlar
is almost over i remembered looking forward to iit
now im applying for what is expected to be an extensive wicked full time internship over the summer for disney
and not work on my darn essay and im totally falling asslleep on myself
not ready to turn in that resume
need to update resume

im turning into SUCH a lazy fatass
i feel like ive been a steady weight
but i feel fat
i wish i had a reference so i can assure myself that im getting fatter

fatfatfat

went on a date last night
it was nice
not bad, it was cute
i also went to the border yesterday
that was such a great experience
of course i didnt cross it hardyhardyhar

im so damnn busy i want to quit many things
but when i miss class or practice
at least today i just fb and youtube

im going to practice FFFFACK

xanga
im sad
no not really
just doing way too much
and this is my hellweek
but i have my lover
no we're not like that though
but ohh i need to work on things so i get to sleep tonight....

i am having such dynamic days
goodness gracious theyre so long.

this quarter is definitely busy
but its different and fun
definitely had its high points
but wayy tooo much procrastination
my procrastination is going to get me straight B's this quarter
HOW PATHETIC.

need to step it up helen.
Need to step it up.

dear xanga
forgive me again for not blogging in you as frequently as id like
ive just been so darn busy and procrastinating
i really could do better in my classes if it werent for my distracting not boyfriend
we have a great relationship if we were together but we aren't
because i dont know what it is but it makes things easier btw the both of us
nonetheless thats another rant
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I'M 20 NOW!!!!
i can't believe it, i don't feel any different except definitely fatter because ive been too busy to go to the gym
what a fucking stupid excuse but i cant deny that im fat now
although i havent gained any weight i feel it becoming a common sight and thats just fucking disgusting and i have to become stronger so that this doesnt happen.
like no kidding this is disgusting and its got to change soon..i would say now
but easier said than done with everything going on

anyways that was my disgusting weight rant
my not boyfriend definitely went up and beyond my expectations for my birthday
because although he chose the childish theme of hello kitty it felt appropriate because i got many hello kitty things for my twentieth birthday<3333
like a huge hello kitty head pillow which is the size of half of me
and a beautiful home-made hello kitty cake made by Luis
although he was high as fuck when he gave it to me
and slept through most of my party
he's still a sweety
he made it the day before with one of his co-workers and the night of my party was the birthday of his close friend hence the high as fuck
making excuses kind of bad, this would only happen in college
but nonetheless
i had a cake for my birthday<333
and jello shots.
and some alcohol..
and balloons<333
lots and lots of balloons
that are my favorite colors in balloons and everything
its just perfect now that i think of it
minor details and subtleties
but it was everything ive ever wanted condensed

yes i am twenty and i had a bash turning it
well im super busy xanga sorry for condensing it
tomorrow is valentines day
again my expectations are low, but i have a feeling i might be surprised again

im just worried because the reason im not official with luis is because i dont want to get married anytime soon
i dont want any serious relationship in college...
but luis really likes me
and that might be not good...

it worries me
because i dont want to marry him
but fuck it thats nothing to worry about now....
its college.

helllloooo
today was my 20th birthday
and i am officially 20
and i did not black out
and i did everything except talk to my best friend jon lei
but today was a pretty awesome day
cause i got a giant hello kitty pilllloooowwwwww<3