October 12, 2011

• my life is perfect
  but i don't like it
  it's everything a girl would ever want

  but it's too much for me
  i talked it out with the bf
  he made me take a break from dancing
  although i love dancing and when im doing it i forget about everything
  that's how it should be when you're doing something you love mind you
  i return back to the reality of overwhelming expectations which i fufill
  but i cannot take it any longer
  another thing i have neglected and bothers me everyday are my academics
  im capable of succeeding i know it
  but i have to stop my overcommitment to dance in order to do so

  i realized why i was in this world of hate
  hating all the people i know
  the countless amount of people i supposedly know and say hi to
  hating how happy i always was
  how lonely i was
  this is a completely new experience to me
  being so known, so popular, so in the loop
  but the thing was i didn't know how to handle it
  i am so used to having my close set of a few friends
  i was always so happy around them because they made me happy
  -now that i know a bazillion more people i guess i was acting like all of them were my close friends so i was constantly in a happy state when in reality theyre just acquaintances people i know, shallow "friends" and i didnt realize that. Luis has always been like that so hes known for a while and although it sounds horrible, mean and selfish. not everyone is worth your time, it's the truth i've heard before but i never thought i would be in such need for a stupid and simple phrase like that.

  well mas o menos
  estoy tratando, pero es dificil
  una otra cosa es la boda de me "tia" que esta este sabado. por eso fue una otra razon para mi crisis

  pues tengo que empezar mis estudios.

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