October 8, 2011

• what it takes to come aliveee

  life is great
  i need to study more
  but everything is great
  luis invited me to a neighbors kb, lols im sad i didnt bring my apt mates, but its hard because it strict saying he only invited me and only having to deal with me rather than extra guests
  i forget he doesnt trust me, because i have a big mouth
  but this event i came a lil late, 12AM i was sleeping, but i met some rad neighbors, new pledges, cool people. i fucking hate british international student. lame ppl in room, but it was really nice being in a party wear it was fucking HOT and sweaty and nasty, where there's room to walk and yeah. it was nice meeting the neighbors

  idk, i kind of want to go to my ex roommates party tonight at the softball house, but i want to go with my roommate but she just had her bid party last night so shes not down. idk if im really willing to go 20 min to charly's house, i really do not know. theres another party that i got personally invited to for tonight to, i really appreciate that they dont just assume im going because my bf is. so i guess im going to that tonight
  i really need to cook more

  my sister texted me in the morning that they were coming to SD in two hours. i was surprised, because one they didnt call me or communicate anything to me! i really want my family to come down to visit me but they really have to  check with me because today i had work until 4PM! i appreciate them willing to come down, but its frustrating that my dad doesnt realize how big of a role i play in my college running leadership events and giving speeches and stuff. it makes me sad that they dont realize how big or how great ive gotten, how much im doing, that they think im just being a bum. im doing so much, im so busy, they dont know any of it.
  i called my mom today and she talked to me, she explained a few things that made her upset with my dad.
  idk what to say but to tell her to tell my dad.
  im trying to think about my relationship with luis, i think we like each other equally, im glad i have him.
  i guess i should tell him everything i feel wrong in relationship? but theres not much now. anymore.

  im glad for my bf
  hes great
  dance is great
  life is great
  go study.

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