July 2, 2013

• i wonder if luis reads this
  i had an emotional and depressing day
  but i went out at attempted to recuperated
  made an ending decision not to eat dinner and feel good about it
  well i ate watermelon.

  right now im debating if i can skip two days of class in two weeks...to go and visit an experimental high school for two days and most likely the weekend in another china metropolis
  i would let my teachers know tomorrow if its ok, if i can make it up
  im leaning towards doing it
  very very much
  i also am debating and leaning towards taking a caligraphy class on thursdays.
  i know i don't know much chinese and can hardly understand it but yeah

  went to silk road, it was ok bargained too low
  ill ask my tutor to go shopping friday or thursday
  probably friday but we'll see

  it rained so hard last night

  i failed my chinese test today. im going to wake up earlier and work harder on it, its definitely a lot of work. i need to put more effort into learning it.
  ill feel better tomorrow because were getting new students in our class and probably someone who i get along better with.
  i felt so depressed today because new kids came and theyre cliquing off and im unsure how to make friends. i like a few people but i dont understand the concept of being friends. making friends. which of course is essential to being an RA but i still dont understand it

  i need to be okay and realize i like working alone
  but i question it
  is it ok that i dont ask for help is it ok that i dont feel like socializing cause i enjoy the company of my computer more? talk about anti social, i force myself to talk, but uff it should be otherwise.

  tired night.

  • 10:22 am
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