June 28, 2013

• taylor keoni hurst
  one of the cutest boys i have ever dated
  a FB post on one of his covers reminded me of him and his beautiful singing skills
  apparently he once dedicated one of his songs to me but i was never aware of it

  back in the days of myspace, stuttering and west side story
  i still cant believe how well he sings, but his voice is so incredibly unique and so deep
  he is such a peculiar person, loved by his friends, a follower and very very silent
  his speech and lack of it is something that makes me smile
  he was just so damn peculiar and weird when he did talk
  but he got into singing and was so great
  im happy he loves what he does and it is just that
  I feel like voice comes with luck it is a talent honed and practiced but something needs to be there and present to make it into something beautiful
  or practice

  but thats a lot harder and just as passionate
  I jus

  i guess im just attracted to musicians, to performers, singers especially because they have what i don't have
  ive always wanted to sing but i can just perform enact and embody it
  speaking singing no

  i love musicians
  i love music
  i love this journey it takes me on
  the stories it entails
  how ambiguous and personal it is

  your ex-lover is dead
  it's been two weeks but im tired of going out
  im tired of having to do things
  im tired of doing so much work
  and i miss home
  the norm

  i miss i dont know what because my home is not much of a home
  its a transition period.....
  its a place where i work see family hardly see friends
  i need to make time to see friends but im so tired
  so tired and exhausted when i finally do get home
  im scared because home
  is in san diego
  and i feel that at least for now
  i can count on luis
  and i have that staple and it feels so nice to have that to go "home" to

  im so scared because my home has been shifting it isnt permanent, i feel unhappy with myself
  i need to have better control over myself
  if i can just start with that
  just control my eating then i can
  then i can start getting to a happier place
  control.

  the only guys that really meet me are the ones who ask me if i have a guy
  so depressing.
  is it any different.?

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