November 26, 2012

• so ive been put in interesting demoralizing situations lately that im definitely making the best of but i do not know what is the right thing to do
  or course that is subjective but
  one that is not important to me atm is how im in a organization with low morale and motivation to go to meeting
  my current problem is im in a group a girls who will let me do all the work when it is a group effort
  i will not let the team fail
  that is my horrible weakness
  but thats correct and it makes me sad that im in such a group who will not even step up speak up or say something
  about what im doing about what theyre not doing
  we have a big group and we dont take advantage of it i might as well be in a small group at least i would justified to say i did a lot of the work but this is unacceptable and saddening.
  this is definitely preoccupying me because i want to do this org i want to but these are not the girls i expected to meet and encounter and it makes me sad because thats not why i joined this. i dont want to leave but it's not fair to me and maybe that's what's best for me. i feel it is going too far to say that i might leave considering how much i put into it so far but imagine if you were in my position what would you do? what would you do.
  i want to write a speech
  maybe i can just read this probably not

  I'm doing a lot of the things
  I don't feel like i'm getting support
  I really want to do this
  I really want to do this quickly
  But I am wrong because it is not I
  it should be we
  and we are not acting that way
  and I am wrong to be pulling things along
  if everyone is not ready to move forward
  it makes me sad that i'll be calling everyone my p if
  theyre not going to treat me like one or let me do this to myself
  but mostly i have to apologize for doing so much
  that is my fault

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