June 12, 2012

• i'm definitely going through a rough patch in life

  i do not know if I could have done anything to prevent it

  i feel that much of the cause of it is my job with disney

  and i have fought hard to stay with it, counter what others might say fate has not meant to be.

  it makes me happy but it has caused me many problems my new beloved job with disney

  i basically quit dancesport and had to giveaway my performance spots because of the inflexibility of my job

  my car has been dying on me, which is making me invest in a new car this summer

  i got a ticket from being careless driving in on my first first day of work, like no kidding.

  ive been paying pretty much my shift in gas to get to work lately because i am still in school

  ive replaced parts in my car in those emergencies when my car broke down and that has cost me several hundreds already

  i almost lost my leadership job due to racist comments, twice.

  now i have decided to check out a lump in my breast and that's going to cost me $200 to discover what it is...+commuting costs because my insurance is down here

  now i am uncertain of my relationship and I'm debating on continuing it

  i haven't thought about it much but I'm feeling that i should discontinue how serious it is but liek i said i haven't thought much about it.

  i feel it rather important and necessary for me to have at least someone to help me through this rough patch, which comes to my ridiculous dependency on my boyfriend or significant other

  i would like to get away from that, its doable

  but its nice

  but i dont want that to be me forever

  and it definitely wont be me in the future so it has to start eventually why not now?

  i feel like im going through a rough patch this past month or two and its almost over?

  i have no clue and im in no place to start predicting

  i have to look at the better brighter things

  please

   

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