May 27, 2012

• oh xanga i need to vent
  im just so stressed and anxiety over my stupid car
  i realized that having a car has complicated my life way more than it had to be
  also getting my disney job and saying i was available to work right away has definitely made my life so incredibly hard and difficult
  im only hoping i can make it to summer without anymore accidents and misfortune
  i just have fucked up so much in the last two days
  starting with not caring that my car was smoking when i got to the parking lot and thinking it would fix itself
  my radiator turned out to be cracked and i blew the thermastat on my way to my second day of work at disney
  for 3 penalty points for that
  i also had work in the morning and i ended up grabbing the wrong key costing me to be 5 minutes late to work meaning another 1.5 points
  i put together wrong and had a helluva time dragging him to my location
  i forgot to do something again
  went out on set late
  and at the end of my first set i made a kid cry and a bunch of came over asking if i made a kid cry :[[[[
  FML
  is hard
  i miss my other
  and fuck i checked out my time sheet and i realized that im clocked out late for lunch extending my lunch
  and not only that
  i did a longer set than necessary and i was dying
  i still have a headache from it
  oh today was a bad day
  no doubt about it
  but the whole time i was saying and hoping to myself this is the moment when everything will get better and turn around
  im still hoping that
  but im terrified for what more the world has in store for me
  im just terrified
  i dont want to lose this job that i love
  i love it
  but it has caused me so much trouble at the moment
  i hope it was worth it
  i hope it is worth it in the end

  im probably going to get called and scolded tomorrow
  cheers to a better day..

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