April 8, 2012

• i want to play a game
  i am at the point where i feel like life is perfect
  i mean i feel like everything is great
  im in all the classes i want, im ahead of schedule, i could even graduate next yr if i wanted....
  thats what i feel
  ill make an appointment to see how that works
  but thats unexpected like my spain trip if that goes through this fall

  when i grow up
  im almost there
  im 20 and im almost a grown up
  i pretty much am a grown up...

  im 20

  when i grow up
  i see myself as a well established woman of high class and society
  when i grow up
  i'll be cultured and working in pumps and expensive suits
  dining with high end figures in my business excursions
  when i grow up
  ill live in an apartment all to myself
  decorated in contemporary whimsical ornaments
  my inspiration is
  http://laceandtea.com/2012/04/

  i could be this
  and this is all going to have to occur within the next 10 years if at all
  so this will be soon.

  how frightening, but how exciting
  but i need to realize, to live in the moment
  it is a critique i've heard far to often more recently than not
  that all this planning and expectations for the future blinds one to what is taking place in the moment
  how often do i appreciate that moment, this time?
  it is such a shame

  but right now
  easter day
  i am extremely content with myself
  where i am in life
  and where i am going

  thank you

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