February 13, 2012
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dear xanga
forgive me again for not blogging in you as frequently as id like
ive just been so darn busy and procrastinating
i really could do better in my classes if it werent for my distracting not boyfriend
we have a great relationship if we were together but we aren't
because i dont know what it is but it makes things easier btw the both of us
nonetheless thats another rant
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I'M 20 NOW!!!!
i can't believe it, i don't feel any different except definitely fatter because ive been too busy to go to the gym
what a fucking stupid excuse but i cant deny that im fat now
although i havent gained any weight i feel it becoming a common sight and thats just fucking disgusting and i have to become stronger so that this doesnt happen.
like no kidding this is disgusting and its got to change soon..i would say now
but easier said than done with everything going onanyways that was my disgusting weight rant
my not boyfriend definitely went up and beyond my expectations for my birthday
because although he chose the childish theme of hello kitty it felt appropriate because i got many hello kitty things for my twentieth birthday<3333
like a huge hello kitty head pillow which is the size of half of me
and a beautiful home-made hello kitty cake made by Luis
although he was high as fuck when he gave it to me
and slept through most of my party
he's still a sweety
he made it the day before with one of his co-workers and the night of my party was the birthday of his close friend hence the high as fuck
making excuses kind of bad, this would only happen in college
but nonetheless
i had a cake for my birthday<333
and jello shots.
and some alcohol..
and balloons<333
lots and lots of balloons
that are my favorite colors in balloons and everything
its just perfect now that i think of it
minor details and subtleties
but it was everything ive ever wanted condensedyes i am twenty and i had a bash turning it
well im super busy xanga sorry for condensing it
tomorrow is valentines day
again my expectations are low, but i have a feeling i might be surprised againim just worried because the reason im not official with luis is because i dont want to get married anytime soon
i dont want any serious relationship in college...
but luis really likes me
and that might be not good...it worries me
because i dont want to marry him
but fuck it thats nothing to worry about now....
its college.
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