November 17, 2011

• shit i realize im just following in the footsteps of my ex boyfriend it's just PATHETIC
  no not really but its kind of crazy
  i fucked up my sophmore year he fucked up his sophmore year
  be it i did fuck up as much as he did and it was earlier than he
  ill be a tour guide like he and join a sorority sophmore yr like he did
  nnow hes the president, i can put rho's on the map

  im now a comm major
  i need to get my shit together before i do anything more
  next quarter im taking 5 classes im not going to drop any
  im also rushing for phi lambda rho
  im pretty sure im making the right decision because lambdas are fat
  LOL no i just havent met any lambdas and the rhos i met are chill and cool people i wont mind knowing for the rest of my life.
  the only thing im uncertain about is...
  studying abroad in spain :[
  i want to improve my fluency...but im thinking thats going to turn into a summer thing....

  im not sure if i should try to be an OL anymore....if im hyped up on coffee, i can do it.

  i got advice from johnny the other day
  he's not even cute, he has an antisocial attitude towards some people and isnt the nicest of guys why do i want to date luis mendez?
  idk he didnt spend shit on me, he doesn't know how to have a gf, he expects me to tell him everything
  im so over him
  right?

  week and a half goes by and i run into him and he yells HEY are we still talking?
  im so over him
  i call him and ask him advise on what to do on my fuck up situation
  he advises me but cant remember his grades exactly comes over and explains it more thoroughly but he obviously fucked up more than me.
  him being CA of course he knows everything already regarding admissions financial aid questions yadada, so he explained to me what someone posted on fb, and ill go double check on financial aid
  maybe ill hangout with him i want friday but prob saturday
  but i have to talk to him before i go to his party on saturday or else im not going
  its going to be freaking awkward because im scared there might be there are expectations and i need to clear those up.

  well need to do hw.

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